(Warning Signs) ~ Lonely Women in Ministry ~`

I did NOT write this article.  And it’s a TOUGH article.  Yet NEEDFUL.

I AM a woman in ministry.  I have struggled with loneliness.  AND, sadly to say, I have seen women that operate like this.  So Sisters, for the healing, for the sake of the truth, and the salvation of your heart and those around you ~ please read Junior DeSouza’s article posted below.  It’s excellent.  So are the rest of his leadership articles.  The link is provided.

By Junior DeSouza ~ http://www.juniordesouza.com/leadershipministry.htm



Lonely Women in Ministry

An Exquisite Creature & A Subculture of Loneliness 

The female gender is an exquisite creation. Women are divinely enriched with captivating beauty, emotional versatility, radar-like intuition, and managerial talent. While us guys are grunting, hitting, colliding, shooting, and doing just about everything primitive under the sun (and somehow getting paid for it), the gals perfect every circumstance with delicacy and genius. The soothing balm of a mother’s words, the heartwarming smile of a playful little girl, the romantic strokes of a maiden, the time-tested discernment of a grandmother…could we imagine life without feminine polish?
Yet we find ourselves in a sub-Eden situation, where forbidden fruits, sinful choices, gender confusion, and devilish snakes have produced a subculture of lonely women. This subculture has encouraged extreme feminism, whereby men are less than relevant and destitution is traded for domination. It has empowered pornography, whereby women convert their loneliness into raw cash and social power. It has driven millions of women into exhausting marketplace careers, where loneliness is exchanged for the rewards of vocational success.

Finally, this subculture is surfacing in Christian ministry. While the women of Babylon often look to the aforementioned as their flotation device, the women of Zion are looking more and more to ministry. However, if anesthetizing loneliness is ministry’s major motive, problems and tragedies are imminent.

Two Kinds of Loneliness
        Loneliness happens in two main circles, the social (outer circle) and the relational (inner circle). Social loneliness is the feeling or fact of being unconnected to a social niche. A social niche is a mini-community in which mutual interests and activities are shared, like sports, extra-curricular activities at school, volunteer work, book clubs, movie watchers, dancing classes, exercise groups, health clubs, local church fellowships, or simply a handful of individuals with great social chemistry. A niche acts as an ecosystem, whereby essential life-giving interactions sustain all involved. Niches define our social life and enjoyment, our “outer circle”.

Relational loneliness is the feeling or fact of being nonintimate with key individuals. In general, this means three persons: familial (family), fraternal (a close friend), and romantic (a romantic partner). These three types of intimate relationships comprise our “inner circle”, those with whom we share souls and daily life. In these we lose a part of ourselves, only to gain a part of another.
Humans gravitate to drastic behaviors if one or both of these lonelinesses persist. The horrors at Columbine, Virginia Tech, and LA Fitness were all rooted here. You and I personally might not resort to murder, but in all honesty, how many of our reckless, extreme behaviors came from being lonely? It is not enough to be social but not relational (the social butterfly with no intimate relationships), or relational but not social (the social caterpillar with one to three very deep relationships). There must be an outer circle and inner circle, social animation and relational intimacy. Without both, loneliness will linger and affect us in some way.

Providential loneliness There is a season of loneliness that is providential (God-orchestrated). Elijah had one at Cherith (1Ki 17:1-6), as did Jeremiah (Jer 15:17), Jesus (Lk 4:1), and Paul (Gal 1:16,17). In fact, anyone who goes the distance with the Lord will also have lonely seasons. In these times the Holy Spirit is weaning us from our codependence on people, an emotional detox, freeing us from excessive trust in man, attaching our soul at the deepest levels to the Father alone.
Providential loneliness is only for a time though. Elijah was not at Cherith long, Jesus was in the desert forty days, Paul was in the Arabian desert less than three years (he went to Damascus the remaining time). It is not God’s will for a Christian to be lonely for many years still going. This is not the testimony of Scripture. Rather, it is an indication that personal and interpersonal problems exist.


We need to be clear about this. Providential loneliness is brutal yet brief, harvesting better and more wholesome relationships in the next season. Perpetual social and relational loneliness betray character sins needing illumination, sanctification, and transformation. Let us resist using God’s name and work to keep our defense mechanisms intact. For many Christian women, that primary mechanism is ministry.

Ministry, A Powerful Narcotic
        Loneliness amidst public service is an oxymoron that aches to the bone. Yet, those of us in leadership know far too well that ministry is a most potent narcotic, capable, for a brief moment, to stop the emotional bleeding caused by loneliness. Tasting the powers of the coming age, joy unspeakable and full of glory, spiritual authority and power, social influence, public admiration…on and on goes the list of ministerial opiates.

Flavoring the bait even more, we are in a time when droves of men are unsubscribing to their leadership call. Like Jonah, they are fugitives of Heaven. This leaves chasmic vacancies in churches and ministries for any semi-talented person to seize. Though it is 100% legitimate, necessary, and biblical for women to be in public ministry, such leadership vacuums are enticing many deeply wounded women to exploit the moment. Many of them are highly unprepared and barely surviving.
A good number of these sisters are genuinely designed and destined for ministerial leadership. That is undeniable. Deborahs, Esthers, Priscillas, and Phoebes are everywhere. However, their unpreparedness and melancholy emotional state put them and their followers in serious danger. As we cheer these alpha girls on in their ministerial exploits, we are indirectly contributing to their eventual implosion! How? By failing to address the overwhelming loneliness that drives them and their ministry.
We have all witnessed high-profile Christian women failing and falling in recent decades. The relational failures, ethical indiscretions, financial extremes, doctrinal weirdness, and questionable choices have left us saddened and confused. We are all capable of such stumbles and falls, are we not? Yes, you and I both. That is why we need to slow down, back up, and analyze the present scene. And, form wise initiatives to protect, prepare, and preserve every daughter of Zion.


Loneliness-driven Ministry
         I spoke at her church for a few days. Soon after I left her email came. She was a Bible teacher for some twenty years, at her home church and abroad. Marriage had been a revolving door for her, each one accompanied by extramarital affairs. She poured out her grief in the email, confessing her unbearable loneliness and lack of inspiration for ministry. She was on the verge, at risk, borderline. Just enough pressure and temptation would tip her into sinful choices again and recycle her darkness even deeper. She is simply one of an entire subculture of lonely women in ministry. Their stories are all so similar, and so are the signs.
Angry undercurrents One of the most common side-effects of loneliness-driven ministry is anger. If we listen carefully and long enough, we can hear angry undercurrents in her teaching, preaching, and approach. At times she might spiritualize it as “righteous indignation” or “holy boldness”, but time and God almost always reveal a deeper frustration with loneliness and failed relationships.

        There is such a thing as righteous anger (Eze 3:14, Jer 15:17, Jn 2:14-17). However, there is a misunderstanding when this alleged anger is excessively recurrent and hesitates to give way to the more tender fruits of the Spirit. Ongoing seething, irritability, hostility, aggression, bitterness, and cynicism is a sign of a problem, not a sign of being spiritual or prophetic, even if it is dressed in such rhetoric. A pig in a tuxedo is still a pig.
Hypersensitivity The lonely have an emotional sunburn, making them overly sensitive, touchy, petty, and hasty judges. Because of the empty void for close companionship, coupled with memorable experiences with rejection, the lonely overreact to the slightest hints that history might be repeating itself–even if the words or actions of others are innocent. In this way they themselves often sabotage the very connections they crave.
Authoritarianism and control Authoritarian themes often run through loneliness-driven ministry. Pet scriptures pertaining to authority are obsessively quoted, preached, prayed, pushed, and guilted on followers. And why? Harping on authoritarianism scares and forces people into staying close, compliant, and controlled–remedying loneliness for a time. Every, and I do mean every, authoritarian leader I have ever known was lonely. Certainly more issues existed, but loneliness was in the top three every time. Alpha girls need to question if they are misusing authority to compensate for non-intimacy.
Difficulty in dealing with men, especially certain types Difficulty in relating with men is a sign many lonely women notice themselves. More specifically, this difficulty often surfaces when dealing with men who resemble previous rejectors, abusers, attachments, or, strong men in ministry who might challenge her personal fortifications. Cross-gender interaction is often a telling one.
Social indiscretions The pairing usually goes like this: lonely woman, sexually dissatisfied and overworked man, and you know the rest. The equation does not always equal a full-blown affair or sexual impropriety, but the preliminary indiscretions are often there. Though both persons are fully responsible, this writing is about lonely women in ministry, so I will have to focus there for now.
A perpetually lonely sister in ministry might convey indiscreet behavior in talk, glance, dress, body language, innuendo, or behavior (one, some, or all of these). Though any one of us can stumble into such folly, these subtle or obvious cues persist season after season in the lonely female leader. The longer the loneliness lingers unaddressed and unresolved, the more likely the social indiscretions will intensify into sexual ones. We’d be terrified at how much this happens. No one would have guessed what the Bible teacher/speaker who emailed me was doing in private.
Attracting other lonely women Leaders reproduce after their kind. We attract and reproduce what we are, not what we say. Our social environment reads our subconscious cues and clues, and whatever we convey determines who comes to us. All this happens at an instinctual, subconscious level. That is why we continually draw the same types of people and spirits into our life, until we look inside by the Holy Spirit and sanctify our deepest self (1Th 5:23, Jas 4:8). Then we will convey new cues and clues to our environment and draw new elements into our life.
Lonely sisters in ministry reproduce after their kind. Their ministries and churches are often filled with other lonely women, much more so than the typical church demographic. In my experience, such fellowships are riddled with drama and pettiness. On the other hand, whole and fulfilled women reproduce after their kind, and they successfully challenge the lonely around them to ascend and transform. Not only this, they draw wholesome men into their world, and successfully partner with them in life and ministry.
Performing in ministry Loneliness-driven ministry often depreciates into a performance. For loneliness to be medicated, the people cannot become displeased with the leader. This would defeat the whole purpose of “loneliness-driven ministry”. What remains is a mixture of gifting and performing to keep people close by. Whether it’s showmanship, stylism, hype, watering down, appeasement, or excessive technology, true ministry becomes compromised by the deeper emotional goal.
Financial extremes Finally, the ministering lonely pull to financial extremes–excessive saving or excessive spending. You’ve heard the saying, All men want is sex, and all women want is money. Of course this is not true all the time, but it is true enough to diagnose gender inclinations.

        Many females logic something like this, Men will fail me, people will fail me, but money is something I can count on. I can’t control people, but I can control money. When people fail, money is seen as a friend that sticketh closer than a brother. The result is financial extremes, excessive saving or excessive spending. In a ministry context, this means greater and greater Christianized luxuries and technologies, or, a paralyzing fear of taking necessary financial risks for ministry development. Either way, the most important financial priority–Christ’s kingdom and people’s needs–are marginalized or bypassed altogether.

Overseers, Observe and Care
        Detecting loneliness-driven ministry is the jurisdiction of ministerial leaders, overseers, pastors, or anyone superintending other leaders. When our spiritual daughters, sisters, mothers, and colaborers show the signs, we need to care enough and be strong enough to mercifully address it. We need to be observant enough to recognize it in the first place. We cannot ensure that every lonely alpha girl will chew and digest the wisdom of such intervention, but we can have a blameless conscience by being sensitive superintendents. Proverbs 27:23: Be sure you know the condition of your flocks, give careful attention to your herds.
I tremble for the archleaders that are more preoccupied with money, popularity, and keeping their machine running than the personal development of those in their sphere. May we be sobered by this truth: superintendents who could have, but did not, intervene in the lonely female leaders around them, when those sisters stumble or fall, the superintendents will also be responsible and have a reckoning with God. There is a serious word from the Spirit to us in Proverbs 24:11,12: Rescue those being led away to death; hold back those staggering toward slaughter. If you say, “But we knew nothing about this,” does not he who weighs the heart perceive it? Does not he who guards your life know it? Will he not repay each person according to what he has done?

Time For A Time-Out?
       To the beloved daughters of Zion, sisters in Christ, and colaborers in the Lord’s vineyard…if you are steeped in loneliness-driven ministry, could it be time for a time-out? Consider taking a season off. Solve and dissolve your loneliness by going back to the basics. Develop a great social life and intimate relationships with a few. I’ve had to do it before, many others have done it, and it spared us a very embarrassing day of reckoning down the road. And your ministry will come back more pure and powerful than ever.                     

        Many ministering females are praying night after night for a best friend, or a husband, or a more enjoyable social life. Could it be that God would answer these prayers immediately if they pressed pause on ministry and play on social life and relationships? Could it be that a season of biblical counseling and interpersonal development would be the bridge into the desires of your heart? It might be time for a ministry time-out. I leave you Proverbs 22:3: A prudent man sees danger and takes refuge, but the simple keep going and suffer for it.

“People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.”

                                                                                      Joseph Fort Newton (1880-1950)


Been doing a LOT of reading about Ruth lately, her sacrifice and selflessness is amazing.  If you have insights you’d like to share…join in please.  (also been reading more about Deborah and Esther as well).


Ransomed Heart Ministries

by John and Stasi Eldredge.  Just found their website and rediscovered authors that I TOTALLY LOVE! because they LOVE JESUS SO MUCH, because HE LOVES US SO MUCH!!!!  I have never loved an author as much as I do their (they are a husband/wife team) work~  I am going to post their “Mission Statement” from their website below, because honestly – it just rocks.  Check them out – get a book, get “Wild At Heart” (for men and their wives), get “Captivating” by Stasi too… and then the rest… it’ll rock your life, your faith, and FREE YOUR HEART.  ALL MY LOVE and His, ~Deb

Mission Statement on http://ransomedheart.com/mission_statement.aspx

We agree with A.W. Tozer,

“That our idea of God corresponds as nearly as possible to the true being of
God is of immense importance to us. Compared with our actual thoughts about Him,
our creedal statements are of little consequence. Our real idea of God may lie
buried under the rubbish of conventional religious notions and may require an
intelligent and vigorous search before it is finally unearthed and exposed for
what it is.”

In other words, if you want to know what a person (or an organization) really
believes, their creeds may not tell you nearly as much as how they live. Or
perhaps, how they pray.

The core of what we believe, live in, and teach may be best captured in our
daily prayer…

My dear Lord Jesus I come to you now to be restored in you, to be renewed in
you, to receive your love and your life, and all the grace and mercy I so
desperately need this day. I honor you as my Sovereign, and I surrender every
aspect of my life totally and completely to you. I give you my spirit, soul and
body, my heart, mind, and will. I cover my self with your blood—my spirit, soul,
and body, my heart, mind and will. I ask your Holy Spirit to restore me in you,
renew me in you, and to lead me in this time of prayer. In all that I now pray,
I stand in total agreement with your Spirit, and with my intercessors and
allies, by your Spirit alone.

[Now, if you are a husband, you’ll want to
include your wife in this time of prayer. If you are a parent, you’ll want to
include your children. If this doesn’t apply to you, jump to the paragraph after
this one.]

In all that I now pray, I include (my wife and/or children,
by name). Acting as their head, I bring them under your authority and covering,
as I come under your authority and covering. I cover (wife and/or children, by
name)with your blood – their spirit, soul and body, their heart, mind and will.
I ask your Spirit to restore them in you, renew them in you, and apply to them
all that I now pray on their behalf, acting as their head.

Dear God, holy
and victorious Trinity, you alone are worthy of all my worship, my heart’s
devotion, all my praise, all my trust and all the glory of my life. I love you,
I worship you, I trust you. I give myself over to you in my heart’s search for
life. You alone are Life, and you have become my life. I renounce all other
gods, all idols, and I give you the place in my heart and in my life that you
truly deserve. I confess here and now that this is all about you, God, and not
about me. You are the Hero of this story, and I belong to you. Forgive me for my
every sin. Search me and know me and reveal to me where you are working in my
life, and grant to me the grace of your healing and deliverance, and a deep and
true repentance.

Heavenly Father, thank you for loving me and choosing
me before you made the world. You are my true Father—my Creator, my Redeemer, my
Sustainer, and the true end of all things, including my life. I love you, I
trust you, I worship you. I give myself over to you to be one with you in all
things, as Jesus is one with you. Thank you for proving your love by sending
Jesus. I receive him and all his life and all his work, which you ordained for
me. Thank you for including me in Christ, for forgiving me my sins, for granting
me his righteousness, for making me complete in him. Thank you for making me
alive with Christ, raising me with him, seating me with him at your right hand,
establishing me in his authority, and anointing me with your Holy Spirit, your
love and your favor. I receive it all with thanks and give it total claim to my
life—my spirit, soul, and body, my heart, mind and will. I bring the life and
the work of Jesus over (wife and/or children, by name) and over my home, my
household, my vehicles, finances, all my kingdom and domain.

Jesus, thank
you for coming to ransom me with your own life. I love you, I worship you, I
trust you. I give myself over to you, to be one with you in all things. And I
receive all the work and all of the triumph of your cross, death, blood and
sacrifice for me, through which I am atoned for, I am ransomed and transferred
to your kingdom, my sin nature is removed, my heart is circumcised unto God, and
every claim made against me is disarmed this day. I now take my place in your
cross and death,through which I have died with you to sin, to my flesh, to the
world,and to the evil one. I take up the cross and crucify my flesh with all its
pride, arrogance, unbelief, and idolatry (and anything else you are currently
struggling with). I put off the old man. I ask you to apply to me the fullness
of your cross, death, blood and sacrifice. I receive it with thanks and give it
total claim to my spirit, soul and body, my heart, mind and will.

I also sincerely receive you as my life, my holiness and strength, and I receive
all the work and triumph of your resurrection, through which you have conquered
sin and death and judgment. Death has no mastery over you, nor does any foul
thing. And I have been raised with you to a new life, to live your life – dead
to sin and alive to God. I now take my place in your resurrection and in your
life, through which I am saved by your life. I reign in life through your life.
I receive your life – your humility, love and forgiveness, your integrity in all
things, your wisdom, discernment and cunning, your strength, your joy, your
union with the Father. Apply to me the fullness of your resurrection. I receive
it with thanks and give it total claim to my spirit, soul and body, my heart,
mind and will.

Jesus, I also sincerely receive you as my authority, rule,
and dominion, my everlasting victory against Satan and his kingdom, and my
ability to bring your Kingdom at all times and in every way. I receive all the
work and triumph of your ascension, through which you have judged Satan and cast
him down, you have disarmed his kingdom. All authority in heaven and on earth
has been given to you, Jesus. All authority in heaven and on earth has been
given to you, and you are worthy to receive all glory and honor, power and
dominion, now and forevermore. And I have been given fullness in you, in your
authority. I now take my place in your ascension, and in your throne, through
which I have been raised with you to the right hand of the Father and
established in your authority. I now bring the kingdom of God, and the
authority, rule and dominion of Jesus Christ over my life today, over my home,
my household, my vehicles and finances, over all my kingdom and domain.

I now bring the authority, rule and dominion of the Lord Jesus Christ,
and the fullness of the work of Christ, against Satan, against his kingdom,
against every foul and unclean spirit come against me. (At this point you might
want to name the spirits that you know have been attacking you). I bring the
full work of Jesus Christ against every foul power and black art, against every
human being and their warfare. I bind it all from me in the authority of the
Lord Jesus Christ and in his Name.

Holy Spirit, thank you for coming. I
love you, I worship you, I trust you. I sincerely receive you and all the work
and victory in Pentecost, through which you have come, you have clothed me with
power from on high, sealed me in Christ. You have become my union with the
Father and the Son, become the Spirit of truth in me, the life of God in me, my
Counselor, Comforter, Strength, and Guide. I honor you as my Sovereign, and I
yield every dimension of my spirit, soul and body, my heart, mind and will to
you and you alone, to be filled with you, to walk in step with you in all
things. Fill me afresh. Restore my union with the Father and the Son. Lead me in
all truth, anoint me for all of my life and walk and calling, and lead me deeper
into Jesus today. I receive you with thanks, and I give you total claim to my

Heavenly Father, thank you for granting to me every spiritual
blessing in the heavenlies in Christ Jesus. I claim the riches in Christ Jesus
over my life today, my home, my kingdom and domain. I bring the blood of Christ
over my spirit, soul, and body, my heart, mind and will. I put on the full armor
of God – the belt of truth, breastplate of righteousness, shoes of the gospel,
helmet of salvation. I take up the shield of faith and sword of the Spirit, and
I choose to wield these weapons at all times in the power of God. I choose to
pray at all times in the Spirit.

Thank you for your angels. I summon them
in the authority of Jesus Christ and command them to destroy the kingdom of
darkness throughout my kingdom and domain, destroy all that is raised against
me, and to establish your Kingdom throughout my kingdom and domain. I ask you to
send forth your Spirit to raise up prayer and intercession for me this day. I
now call forth the kingdom of the Lord Jesus Christ throughout my home, my
family, my kingdom and my domain, in the authority of the Lord Jesus Christ,
with all glory and honor and thanks to him.

For those needing/desiring a few more thoughts…

  • We believe the Bible to be the inspired, only, infallible, inerrant,
    authoritative Word of God.
  • We believe in the One True God, The Sovereign, eternal Creator of all that
    exists, both seen and unseen. God is eternally existent in three persons, yet
    one God: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
  • We believe in the deity of our Lord Jesus Christ, in His virgin birth, in
    His sinless life, in His miracles, in His vicarious and atoning death through
    His shed blood, in His bodily resurrection, in His ascension to the right hand
    of the Father, and in His personal return in power and glory.
  • We believe God created mankind in His image. Adam and Eve, the first human
    beings, chose to rebel against God and go their own way. As a result, all of
    mankind became separated from God; the image of God in man was distorted;
    mankind became subject to the power of the devil; and the sinful nature was
    passed on to all their progeny. Because of original sin, unregenerate human
    beings are incapable of pleasing or commending themselves to God. The only
    remedy for mankind’s pitiful predicament is redemption through faith in Jesus
  • We believe that when a person exercises saving faith in Christ he passes,
    immediately, out of spiritual death into spiritual life and from the old
    creation into the new, a new nature and a new heart imparted; being justified
    freely by grace, he is accepted before the Father as Christ, His Son, is
    accepted and loved as Christ is loved–having his place and portion linked to
    Christ and one with Christ – forever.
  • We believe in the present ministry of the Holy Spirit by whose indwelling
    the Christian is enabled to live a godly life.
  • We believe in the resurrection of, both, the saved and the lost–they who
    are saved unto the resurrection of life and they who are lost unto the
    resurrection of damnation.
  • We believe in the spiritual unity of believers in our Lord Jesus Christ.

Love this post – link follows… “No, not broken. It just isn’t time yet…”

http://loveinwaiting.wordpress.com/2011/04/07/no-not-broken-it-just-isnt-time-yet/ and I read her article, wonderful article… and then thought – okay, well I AM broken ~ but healing.   ***gentle smile***  And yet – it IS still about timing – whether the Lord is doing repair work, or He has other plans all together, or work to do in between.  Thanks “Love In Waiting” for your heart, and this article’s truth.



For Christ!



Louie Giglio – speaking on “Empowered to Carry the Name.”